Suchrian Ezanwan

change one part of your life????

" You do not know what have you done until it is gone far away already"- A quote i used to hear a thousand times, yet never really figured out its true meaning. It had no significance to me, until one day when my whole world fell into pieces.

I lost my mom on a gloomy afternoon in January. It was beyond a doubt, one of the most-heartbreaking things that has ever happened to me. My heart deflated at the sight of her leaving, no longer to be by my side. It was there and then when I realized that she meant the world to me.

Her passing consumed me like wild fire. I was traumatized and i became irrational. Guilt surrounded me every single day. If only i had change and power to reverse back in time and relive the moments when she was alive, i wished i spent more time with her. I wished that i have never taken her for granted.

I would have liked it if we talked more and argued less when she still here. The only thing I remembered doing was complaining to her about how tired i was. She listened never replied back, not even once. It was only a month ago when I realized that what ever pain that i had could never be same to hers.

However, the greatest thing that i wished i had done was to tell her how much i love her. Despite our constant arguing, i really did loved her with all my entire heart. I would have thanked her for all the things that she did for me. To apologize for being pig-headed and disappointing at times.

Somehow, i kept wishing that this was just a dream and beginning for me to move forward . That she will still be there for me when i wake up. But, I have to realize that and accept the faith that death does not work that way. There are somethings in this world that cannot be changed. Mom was a woman of substance. She was an amazing person and she fought for her life until the very end for rising 10 of her children. I love her and she will be in my heart forever.

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Teacher

It had been years I ended my secondary school. It was the place that I spent lots of my time.It was a place that I learnt a new beginning, a path of success started with falling down and able to find strength to stand up again. The memories are the precious treasures that I have . There are friends keep in touch with me. The blissful day that we lived together faded in my mind once a while. A desire to go back to the past time always live in my mind. Needless to say, time we spent together with teachers are the same. Nevertheless, on the face of the clock passing of time registered. we hear it, the hushed of tick-tock sound that breaks the silence and we see it, but often we do not feel it. Each second makes its marks on person's life., come and the goes, the birth and the death, quietly disappearing without any sign. There were teachers that had inked my heart through the time that had past meaningfully.